– START HERE

– Too Dead For Suicide
– Truth #1
– Truth #2
– Truth #3
– Just To My Kids
– Just To My Nephews & Nieces

– Mi Familia Es Su Iglesia
– A Summary Of Personality Disorders
– Disclaimer of Ignorance
– Diagnosing the Family
– Any Of My Business

– Just Ryan
     *Summary
     *Early Days
     *Out Of Control
     *Too Mule For School
     *The Daily Bond
     *Delivered From Fighting
     *Single-life Decisions
     *Court Needs
     *Jamin Is An Ass
     *Intimumcy
     *An Enigma
     *Mouth Sounds and Deaf People
     *Outsourcing Incarceration

– On Conclusions & Hypotheses
– Family Hypotheses Part 1: The Big Ideas
– Family Hypotheses Part 2: Random Lessons
– Advice to Jamin
– Wendy’s Response

—Narcissism
           *Ministry Of Health
           *Let Them Eat Cake
           *Story Time
           *Drama Kings
           *Most Important Performance Ever
           *Legends In Our Own Eyes
           *Building The Pyramids
           *Jack Of No Trades, Master of All
—Operating Outside of Expertise
           *Un-Ambiguous
           *Marriage Prep
           *Pedophilia
           *By Their Own Standard
—Black and White Thinking
           *God Ma’s Dogmas
           *Cookie Cutter Kids
           *Onward!

—Self-Contradiction
           *That’s What He Said
           *Home Schooling Indecision
           *Indulgences
           *Accreditation Cancellation
           *False Advertising
           *Ideological Revolving Door
—Blaming
           *Severance
           *Bad Teachers
           *Learning To Grade
           *Fudgy Facts
           *Unavoidable Setbacks
—Mind Reading
           *Damned If You Speak, Damned If You Listen

—Doublespeak
           *Character Clues
           *Unmerited Fervor
—Disdain for the Lower Class
           *Cruelty
           *What About Slob?
           *Too Dumb to Question
—Lack of Recognition
           *Totally Different
           *Toilet Paper Time
           *Forget Paris
           *Like Ri, If I Could Be Like Ri

—Lack of Delegation
           *Women & Children First
           *A Matter of Principals
           *Prince Edward Longshanks
—Lack of Autonomy (Professional Micromanagement)
           *If You Want Something Done Right
           *Corporate Punishment
           *Grade Quicker
           *Grade Quickerer
           *Eternal Interns
           *Overgrown Leaders
           *The One Exception
—Personal Micromanagement
           *Tinker Troys
           *Your Kid Is Ugly
           *Contraceptive By Will
           *Mommy’s Makeover
           *Papa, Papa, and Papa Too
           *Scheduled & Sketchy
           *Treat Me Normal

– Cult Conclusions & Hypotheses
           *What did you learn?
           *How is your relationship with God?
           *How could you believe that?
           *Why didn’t you leave sooner?
           *Why do you keep defending them?
           *Were you brainwashed?
           *Am I crazy?
           *Who got special treatment?
           *Who was traumatized most?
           *Was it really all bad?
           *Isn’t some of this normal?
           *Who are you to talk?
– Advice to Jamin
– Wendy’s Response

(Autobiographical Amendments)

Part 3: The Conflict – Jamin…to October 2019
– My Real-Life Fairy Tale (Part 1)
– My Real Life Fairy Tale (Part 2)
– My Real Life Fairy Tale (Part 3)
– My Real Life Fairy Tale (Part 4)
– Tale Of Two Cities

Part 3A: Child Jamin (Iowa, ages 0-9)
– 7-ish
– Kids of the 80’s
– Christian Kids of the 80’s
– Mom
           *Rebel Mom
           *Zombie Mom
           *Disrupting Reality
– Dad
           *Curse Words
           *Mysogyny & Masculinity

– Ryan
           *Missing Ingredients
           *Unprotected
           *Implausible Deniability
– God
           *Crucifixion (the reason)
           *Ministry (the means)
           *Bible (the justification)
           *Rapture (the threat)
           *Heaven (the reward)
– Sexual Development
           *Don’t Ask, Don’t Spell

– Me
           *Not Seen & Not Heard
           *Kill Yourself Already
           *Don’t Cry, For Christ Sake
           *Family Feuds
           *The Walk Out
           *Begging For Family
           *Jeremiah 23:16
           *Really Don’t Cry, For Christ Sake
           *The Beginning of the End
– Hypotheses

Part 3C: Adult Jamin
– Secrets (1999-2003)
           *Sex, Lies, and Vision Escape
           *Cobblers
           *Breakup Or Breakdown
           *Detox
           *Wonderful Counselor
           *Courtship
           *Married Twice

– Blind Faith (2004-2007)
           *Equilibrium Narratives
           *Honeymoon
           *Pedonillia
           *My Old Man & My Young Earth
           *Premise The Menace
           *Pressure
           *Continued Counselling
           *Sects’ Addiction

– Reality (2008-2015)
           *Disequilibrium
           *Peak Org
           *Coda
           *Finale
           *Relational Hospice

– Winning Wendy (2016-2017)
           *Poking The Bear
           *Foreshadowing
           *Intervention
           *High Chair Legionnaire
           *Crazy Blessed Adventures (part 1)
           *Crazy Stressed Adventures (part 2)
           *Crazy Pressed Adventures (part 3)
           *Crazy Incest Adventures (part 4)

– Sex & Marriage Hypotheses
– General Hypotheses
– Advice to Jamin
– Wendy’s Response

– Scheduling The Exit
– The Hevvis
– The Smiths
– Ejected
– Emergency Walk
– The Speech
– The Leses
– Family Meeting
– Emergency Call
– Groundwork
– The Plan
– Surviving the Holidays (Part 1)
– Surviving the Holidays (Part 2)

– Pulling The Trigger
– The Trinity Fires Back
– Meeting Attempt #2
– Exiting Quietly
– Empty Praise
– Dear Ryan
– Dear Betty
– Lifepoints 2.0
– Hypotheses About the Exit
– Advice To Jamin
– Wendy’s Response

– Betty
– The Setup
– Different in Hindsight (January 20)
– D-day (January 29)
– Giggity
– The Blossoming of a Beautiful Disaster
– A Royal Awakening (March 5)
– Locking It In (March 9)
– Ides of March
– Burning Our House To The Ground
– The Trinity Intervenes
– The Storm Before The Storm
– Hypotheses
– Advice to Jamin

– Writing The Headlines
– Iceberg Ahead (Friday, May 1)
– First Impact (Monday, May 4)
– Sinking (Tuesday May 5)
– Last Words (Wednesday May 6)
– Gunplay (Thursday, May 7)
– Watching the Dominoes (Friday, May 8)
– Another Letter (Wednesday, June 10)
– A Month of Darkness

– My Plot (Friday, July 3)
– The Rejection Parade (Friday, July 10)
– Trapped
– Logan, Utah (Wednesday, July 15)
– Living in Grayscale (Friday, July 17)
– The Court Report (Tuesday, August 11)
– Please. Please. Leave.
– Stitching Up The Marriage (Friday, August 21)
– The Last Goodbye (Friday, August 28)
– The Last Last Goodbye (Sunday, September 20)
– Hypotheses
– Advice to Jamin

Part 6B: Wendy’s Version

Part 7a: Finding Jamin
– Flailing
– Collers
– Tests
– Memory
– Feelings
– Wishes
– Reality
– Timeline
– Family Tree
– Constructing My Story

Part 7b: Reconstruction
– Disconnecting
– The Reynolds Pamphlet
– Growing and Moving Forward
– Ten Years

Part 7c: Grieving
– Sorry Not Sorry
– Owning Crap
– Responsibility
– Gratitude
– Hearing God
– New Goals
– Morning Lists
– Hypotheses
– Advice To Jamin

Part 8A: Honorable Mentions
– To the Smiths, Leses, & Hevvis
– To the Smiths
– To the Leses
– To the Hevvis
– To the Cobblers
– To Wholehearted and Courageous
– To the Drivers
– To Jax
– To Kacher
– To Bob Ballion
– To free-thinkers and think-free-ers

Part 8B: Goodbye Letter To My Drug of Choice